Make Me Feel A Little Less Insane.

I just want to be dead.

They say

it is better to feel pain than nothing at all.

During this rain and storm, someone is willing to stand next to me.

To bear and suffer the pain with me.

me halfway through shaving my legs: I don't want to do this anymore

I am so ashamed,
I am so ashamed of all the trouble I have caused
I am so ashamed of all these un-opened doors
I am so ashamed of what I have become.

I am no stranger to stoner logic. I will not be the goody bag at your pity party. And at any given time, I don't know whether to slap you, kiss you, or salute you.

"You're born, you live and you die. There are no do-overs, no second chances to make things right if you frak 'em up the first time. Not in this life anyway. Like I said, you make your choices and you live with them. And in end you are those choices."