I just want to be dead.
it is better to feel pain than nothing at all.
During this rain and storm, someone is willing to stand next to me.
To bear and suffer the pain with me.
me halfway through shaving my legs:
I don't want to do this anymore
I am so ashamed,
I am so ashamed of all the trouble I have caused
I am so ashamed of all these un-opened doors
I am so ashamed of what I have become.